Optimistic? Or simply numb...??
Monday, February 28, 2005 at 10:00 PM

*sigh* Mrs Leong has finished marking our Maths test. No comments on my results, though I have not gotten it back. I have a premonition that I got a single digit O_O Oh man... Sux.... Lousy grades sux... And they get on my nerves =( But fortunately I usually only mull over it for a while and after that, I would be alright. Perhaps that's the reason why I face less stress now as compared to in the past. On the other hand, now that I feel more 'indifferent' about my results, it may not be good, coz' I won't be motivated. However, I do have expectations of myself, so I'm still disappointed and depressed when I don't do well. But often, I don't execute actions to salvage my grades -_-" On my way home today, I was suddenly reminded of something my pastor said yesterday during the church service. "It is not the situation that gives you stress, but your perception of the situation that stresses you out." For me, maybe I'm just numb from failing, so I see failures as normal. But I think it is God's works. He has changed me and moulded me into what I am now. I can handle stress better now, be it coz' I have better management or I'm simply numb. Anyway, I really think that phrase is meaningful. Hope it helps you all face your work optimistically, coz' stress is given by yourself =)

rhapsody in blue.