Helpless.... Useless....
Thursday, April 21, 2005 at 8:21 PM

Was in the midst of studying. Actually was just typing out some Physics definitions for the recent topics. I realised I don't understand a thing about Fluids AT ALL. *sigh* I think I'm progressing way too slowly. 66 more days to mid-year exams. 199 days to A-levels. And I found out there are a lot of Maths topics (about 10) which I have little idea, if not no idea at all, about them.

Anyway, was just chatting over MSN with a close friend who's having some problems in class. Think I shouldn't talk too much about this here in case someone relevant happen to chance upon my blog. In any case, I think it's really too much of those people. Maybe I'm being too subjective here but... I can't help it! Why do things happen this way? Can't just good things happen to her? I really feel useless in times like this. It always happens. Too many experiences when my friends are down and in need of help, but I can do nothing to help. All I ever does is listen. I don't even know how to console them or advise them! This is so heart-aching... I mean I'm upset whenever they are down yet I don't know how to help. It's not a nice feeling to have... *sigh* She is such a sweet girl (if you know her well) and a worthy friend. Don't ever let me see any of those 'friends' of hers. They've made their way into my bad books, together with a certain someone recently. Stupid, why do such things happen so frequently recently? I thank the Lord for blessing my family and me throughout the years, so that I haven't had much problems like some of my friends. But I really wish that He will bless them all as he has blessed me, or even more than that. Or maybe all these are just some form of trials to polish them into fine, strong individuals. Still, it doesn't feel good to see people suffer. It's true that your heart aches when you see your loved ones getting hurt...

rhapsody in blue.