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Saturday, August 25, 2007 at 6:46 PM

I'm empty once again.

I don't know why. But once in a blue moon I will find myself in this state.

The state which my mind and brain are a total blank. I don't feel anything. I CAN'T feel anything. Don't feel like doing anything. Just be still.

I'm like existing in vacuum. Or within myself it is vacuum. It's just nothingness.

It's like a pool of still water. Or is it dead water. I think I can reach nirvana soon if this carries on.

(That was meant to be a joke. Pls don't take offence.)

I don't even know what's the cause for this. It just happened so suddenly. I was still laughing my head off in school. But after I reached home, somehow this state just struck me like an epidermic.

Unfortunately, after I woke up today, I'm still in this state. Maybe I need more sleep. Maybe I need more sugar to make me feel good.


Or maybe. I need nothing at all.


Maybe it's just like an auto-restart for a computer system. Reboot, reformat. Then cleanse the system of all junk. Then re-install what is important and essential.

I thought of it that way. Maybe my body has accumulated too much junk, too much thoughts that I collected unconsciously. It's time to detoxify and start on a new note again.

rhapsody in blue.