RAH.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007 at 2:07 AM

I feel so crap tonight.

Many things just came slapping into my face at the same time. What better timing can it get.

I don't know if I'm upset coz' of what exactly. Coz' of the little bit of unhapppiness that was buried before everything happened, and therefore when things triggered off, the intensity of my emotions was higher? Coz' of all those due-ing assignments in this busy week that I suddenly found out (or rather, remember) in shock? Or coz' I was feeling abit frustrated not knowing what to say or do to somebody? Or it's the fact that I knew of some dumb news which shouldn't even affect me at all in the first place.

Maybe the last one isn't supposed to be a fact.

I think one leads to another, resulting in a chain reaction that ignites fire in me. Everything is unrelated. But come together to form a combustible chemical reaction.

I hate to feel irritated or agitated. Coz' I know I don't usually. Once I do, it's kinda terrible. My mood gets so lousy and I will literally keep ranting (either to somebody or in my own mind, which usually is the latter). I know my face is super 'black' even without the use of mirror.

This is the kind of 'black' face that some of my colleagues saw 1+ year ago when I was still working, under very stressful and busy conditions.


The fast pace of the society is not for me. Or rather, I just don't like things to surge in all at one go, leaving me extremely overwhelmed and with a sudden helplessness. Whether it's things on my to-do list, news that bother me, or things that require my attention etc. When they come together, my laid-back personality threatens to break loose and yell.

Coz', I'm a laid-back person. I enjoy a slower pace.
That's why people say I'm slow (in another sense).

rhapsody in blue.