summation
Monday, December 31, 2007 at 8:17 PM

Suddenly it's the last day of 2007. This whole year, the days have been flying past too fast, esp the 2nd half.

It was a happy year somewhat for the 1st half. My results for 1st half was not bad. CAP alone was 3.5, accumulated was 3.3.

Then 2nd half was like s***. Pardon my language haha. But basically that word really describes my life for the 6 months. Or actually it's just the past 3-4 months. Went through alot. 紧张过、惊慌失措过、彷徨过、伤心过、心痛过、挣扎过、哭过、无奈过、心寒过、愤怒过。。。。I.... Don't know. How did I land myself in this deep mess. I chided myself, got angry at myself, and I do hate myself for taking that one wrong step that I myself know and caution myself right at the start not to. WHY did I ignore and just went ahead. It's been proven that I should have just trusted my head instead of my heart. Coz' my heart made that decision, it has gotten what it asked for -- trouble, pain, tears. 人真的很奇怪，明知道会演变成这样，却还是一头栽进去。只能说我是自作自受。但是不会再有第二次了。这是我对自己的誓言。

But well. I guess the only good thing that came out of it all is I grew up a little. No pain no gain, how true that is. But I really wonder if I should thank you for all that you brought me.

Plus the fact that some other things happened too. And I began to think even more than before.

This year has been rough and tough. But I'm thankful for the chalet. At least for that 3 days, I was really really happy and enjoyed myself =) 我想，人总是要痛着成长，才会懂得、记得。

rhapsody in blue.