douunderstand?
Saturday, March 22, 2008 at 2:43 AM

也存在着 对自己残忍，也对别人残忍的事

Give me some time. Don't be too hard on yourself, though I don't know how. I need time. I don't know how long. I know it's cruel to you. But I don't know what else nor how else to do. If I let emotions invade me, I will fall. At this point. Yes I think I will. And I won't know what to do to get out of it when that happens. I'm sorry. All I can say is sorry, and pls.... Be nicer to yourself coz' there are alot of things that you don't have to zai yi about. Esp when it concerns me. Coz' I'll be fine. All I need is time. I'm trying to be as normal as I can be, though it may not seem so. It's just that I talk lesser coz' there isn't things to talk about and I don't feel like talking sometimes. You know I don't pretend. Coz' I don't like pretending and lying. Much as you have your ren xing, I have mine too, though I don't ask that you give me tolerance and understanding. And though I seem like this, I still do care. I just have no strength to express it nor know how to express it. For now. My conclusion is, be nicer to yourself. Coz' I don't feel any wee bit better to see you like this. It just makes both of us tired and even more tired and doesn't solve a thing. And you know I hate to be the cause of others' misery in any way.

但我希望 对自己仁慈，也对别人仁慈

rhapsody in blue.