it's ok really.
Thursday, July 31, 2008 at 2:49 AM

you know... you're the only one whom i ever n will quarrel with.

good or bad, i dunno.

coz' i dun ever get so ji1 dong4 with ppl. rarely.

i'm nt afraid to let you know coz' it's nth to hide anyway. quarrel, so what?

just means you stir up my emotions more.

good or bad?
i dunno.

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sometimes u wonder why and how humans evolved to be how they are like now. i dun have the exact answer either. though theoretically the answer would be environmental + genetic influences.

but how the hell i grew to be complacent, laidback and takes life slowly, i dunno.

but one thing i do like is the peaceful internal state i enjoy all these yrs. coz' i'm easily contented? coz' i look at diff things in life? coz' i'm simply weird?

dun need to understand me. coz' there are things tt each person can and cannot understand & accept.

accepting e person as himself is the key. coz' disagreeing with one doesnt mean i can't accept him.

or perhaps. tts juz another of my weird beliefs.

some things are dumb in others' eyes. but it's the same, juz like how i tink the jian chi of waiting for everyone to go off b4 u log off is uncalled for, u tink some of my beliefs are uncalled for. but to the person it is something impt. if it is something impt to you, hold on to it if you muz, even if others criticise you. coz' i dun see anything wrong in holding on to impt things itself, but well of coz' evrything has pros & cons. but well, everyone lives by diff principles tt guide their lives. it's nt tt i tink wat i tink is correct n others are wrong. its juz living by my own principles -- principles tt i dun tink i can give way to.

yes, i'm stubborn, i'm dumb, i'm bai chi, i'm weird, i'm un-understandable :) but...... it's really ok. i feel so. coz' to me, principles is v impt, tts e reason for my stubborn-ness when i stand firm on my views. but well, dun expect me to change -- personality traits are stable =) nt to find an excuse, but juz tt i'm fine with e way i'm living my life so far.

i will be shocked if one day somebody who understands me well actually exists in my life circle haha.

not zhen dui you, coz' if i dare to be so honest n open, it means there is nth to hide or whatsoever. u know i hold honesty highly so watever is on my mind i wil juz say, coz' i dun feel it will hinder anything anyway. juz treat it as a kind of understanding-each-other session haha. coz' if ppl dun communicate, how wld they ever know things tt they wld have known?

rhapsody in blue.